i just figured it out. why i’ve put the baby prep on hold for so long. why babe-to-be only has a small drawer full of treasures. why some days i even sort of forget i’m growing boy inside this tired body.
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because gavin west is still my baby.
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i sat down here to write him a little letter but i think i’ll keep my mama words between the two of us and write them on a sheet of paper instead.
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he took a late nap today. which meant that tonight (after a super-classic day of grouchy-gavin antics) he was wide awake at 10:30pm. we found a comfy spot on the couch and he crawled up on top of the big-o belly and twirled my hair.
this is rare.
he wanted nothing more than a moment with me. a quiet moment of just-us. he slurped his paci and i could see his one dimple peeking out from behind it.
he was happy.
gavin is mini.
he is still my babe.
u look SO beautiful Linds!! :)its amazing how motherhood works out-- priceless.
ReplyDeleteYou are right, you are glowing. Must be because you're carrying another boy.
ReplyDeleteGavin will still be your baby. . .even when the new babe arrives. I still think of Easton as my baby. And now, he's clearly a big kid.
ReplyDeleteYou ARE glowing.
i been loving gavin this trip lots. he is mini. silly and sweet. and your belly is cute.
ReplyDeleteI can't wait to Xavier can choose to come hang out with me and play with my hair. I secretly love when all he wants to do is cuddle with me and doesn't want me to put him down. You're so lucky to have two and another one coming! And your preggo belly is awesome!! :D
ReplyDeletei'm with you...my almost two year old still feels like a baby. she loves to crawl on my lap and rub my arms when sleepy and suck her binkie.
ReplyDeletewhere will the baby be held?
i wonder too...
surely, it will all work out. but it has been much harder for some of my babies to give up their place than others.
wishing you luck and peace in your last weeks--oh, and good sleep too.
megan
you will always have 2 babies before this next one comes!
ReplyDeleteyou are glowy & gorgeous. & may i remark on your hair in the sun? so pretty lindsay. so very pretty.
Beautiful Lindsay
ReplyDeleteOh my Lindsay you are BEAUTIFUL! what a perfect picture moment :0) I miss you*
ReplyDeleteI think this has to be my favorite picture of you...ever! You are truly a beautiful mama inside and out.
ReplyDeleteYes, it does seem like just a minute ago that we were holding a fresh, new baby Gavi right there on that couch. What lucky boys to have you, pretty Lindsay mama. Miss you. . .
ReplyDeletei miss you.
ReplyDeleteWith two so close together, sometimes it is overwhelming and scary and you want to run and hide and you wonder HOW is this going to work.
ReplyDeleteAnd one day, when they are older, they are best friends with secrets that only they share. Then you are grateful for the chaos of those first years because it is worth it.
so sweet. you just keep hugging + cuddling + remembering how his little body feels tucked into yours. my daughter had a rough time adjusting when baby graham showed up, and i'm pretty sure i spent the first six weeks with a broken heart as i watched her try out her new place in our family - it's incredibly hard and incredibly good. just like everything else in this silly life. good luck to you, pretty lady!
ReplyDeletegavin is mini....carson is tellin me about him alot, help me get to studebaker when your baby comes, that is going to be key.
ReplyDeleteOh gorgeous girl, you look amazing. I hope you're feeling good, get plenty of rest (well, that is just silly isn't it, as much as you can anyway - the dishes can wait!). Enjoy the time with your little guys, and Gavin will always be your sweet baby. Always.
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