Wednesday, January 25, 2012


we've had a few really good days.
and today was no exception.
...but it started too early.
and by four o'clock it had lost it's happy-go-lucky.

i was a tired and burnt out mom.

they were one-and-nearly-three-and-five-and-a-half-year-old boys.
they were c-razy.

and i got grumpy at lucas.
enough so that i felt i owed him an apology before bed tonight.
all he was today - was a wiley little boy - cooped up in january.
and i forgot that for a minute.
tonight i am grateful that he accepted my whispered i'm sorry.
with a simple i know. 

tonight i am grateful that i'll get to try again with him tomorrow.

tonight i am grateful for this journal of my thoughts.
the ones i've kept here on this blog consistently for all these years... because tonight i found this.

and he's five. already.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

morning snow.

january finally decided to get real.
we got snow last night. 
big snow. 
the magic kind. 
the boys went to bed with clear skies and silly talk of a big storm. 
they woke up to a blanket of happy white stuff. 
it's still falling fast. 
as much as i hate this kind - i can't help but giggle at their excitement. 
they've already been out twice. thirty minutes to get ready. ten minutes out. 
and charlie! his first real snow!
he snuck out for a minute, too. 
and he was a shivering little silly - in love. 

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Monday, January 9, 2012

add color.

my personal theme for twenty-twelve is to be more. 
be more of a mother. be more of a wife. be more of a friend. be more of lindsay.
it's an easy enough mantra. 
quick to come to mind when i feel more like sneaking off quietly.
and back into my shell. 
this is what being more looked like last week. 
it was colorful and so very sweet. 
he hummed while he painted. 
and my heart sang. 
be more.
be more.
be more.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012