Wednesday, January 25, 2012

reminder.


we've had a few really good days.
and today was no exception.
...but it started too early.
and by four o'clock it had lost it's happy-go-lucky.

i was a tired and burnt out mom.

they were one-and-nearly-three-and-five-and-a-half-year-old boys.
they were c-razy.

and i got grumpy at lucas.
enough so that i felt i owed him an apology before bed tonight.
all he was today - was a wiley little boy - cooped up in january.
and i forgot that for a minute.
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tonight i am grateful that he accepted my whispered i'm sorry.
with a simple i know. 

tonight i am grateful that i'll get to try again with him tomorrow.

tonight i am grateful for this journal of my thoughts.
the ones i've kept here on this blog consistently for all these years... because tonight i found this.

and he's five. already.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

morning snow.



january finally decided to get real.
we got snow last night. 
big snow. 
the magic kind. 
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the boys went to bed with clear skies and silly talk of a big storm. 
they woke up to a blanket of happy white stuff. 
it's still falling fast. 
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as much as i hate this kind - i can't help but giggle at their excitement. 
they've already been out twice. thirty minutes to get ready. ten minutes out. 
and charlie! his first real snow!
he snuck out for a minute, too. 
and he was a shivering little silly - in love. 


Thursday, January 12, 2012

Monday, January 9, 2012

add color.





my personal theme for twenty-twelve is to be more. 
be more of a mother. be more of a wife. be more of a friend. be more of lindsay.
it's an easy enough mantra. 
quick to come to mind when i feel more like sneaking off quietly.
and back into my shell. 
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this is what being more looked like last week. 
it was colorful and so very sweet. 
he hummed while he painted. 
and my heart sang. 
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be more.
be more.
be more.


Wednesday, January 4, 2012