reminder.

we've had a few really good days.

and today was no exception.

...but it started too early.

and by four o'clock it had lost it's happy-go-lucky.

i was a tired and burnt out mom.

they were one-and-nearly-three-and-five-and-a-half-year-old boys.

they were c-razy.

and i got grumpy at lucas.

enough so that i felt i owed him an apology before bed tonight.

all he was today - was a wiley little boy - cooped up in january.
and i forgot that for a minute.

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tonight i am grateful that he accepted my whispered i'm sorry.

with a simple i know. 

tonight i am grateful that i'll get to try again with him tomorrow.

tonight i am grateful for this journal of my thoughts.

the ones i've kept here on this blog consistently for all these years... because tonight i found this.

and he's five. already.

the daily:

morning snow.

january finally decided to get real.

we got snow last night. 

big snow. 

the magic kind. 

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the boys went to bed with clear skies and silly talk of a big storm. 

they woke up to a blanket of happy white stuff. 

it's still falling fast. 

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as much as i hate this kind - i can't help but giggle at their excitement. 

they've already been out twice. thirty minutes to get ready. ten minutes out. 

and charlie! his first real snow!

he snuck out for a minute, too. 

and he was a shivering little silly - in love. 

be more.

this is perfect.

add color.

my personal theme for twenty-twelve is to be more. 

be more of a mother. be more of a wife. be more of a friend. be more of lindsay.

it's an easy enough mantra. 

quick to come to mind when i feel more like sneaking off quietly.
and back into my shell. 

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this is what being more looked like last week. 

it was colorful and so very sweet. 

he hummed while he painted. 

and my heart sang. 

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be more.

be more.

be more.