Sunday, November 16, 2008

"a son's gonna rise in a mile. in a mile you'll be feelin' fine" - citizen cope

the hugeness of it all - 28 weeks {a picture for ashlee}

um. yes. why hello, third trimester.
i remember you.
my aching hips.
the tossing and turning trying to catch just a wink of good sleep.
bumping into things with the hugeness of this very-much-there belly.
the rush of things i've got left to do.
oh my! do i have alot left to do.

it's all sort of snuck up on me. the hustle and bustle of chasing that boy and the daily living we've been doing has sort of masked the months ticking by and all of a sudden... this new boy will be making his grand debut in a mere matter of weeks.
it's different this time. this birth year. looking back on my months of growing a lucas bean, i've realized that i was a bit naive. the reality of his birth story has yet to settle in me. and i'm going to spend the next few months diving deep into that.
this babe will have his own story. i'm anxious to learn of it. and a whole big bit of scared, too. i've been careful to notice each growing milestone this time around, checking them off one by one very cautiously. much more aware that each passing week that is still spent growing babe is a blessing. a big huge blessing.

and here we are.
i can imagine it now.
imagine tiny boy feets.
the fresh smell of new baby snuggled up to me.
a hungry little nursling.
wrapped up in blankets i've made for only him.
his handsome name.

i am sad that weeks four through twenty-eight have sort of whizzed by in a blur and the tiny blip of moment that this boy will share here safely with me has passed without enough time to relish in it.
i love this gift i've been given. this child bearing gift.
the hugeness of it all.

goodnight loves, lin


  1. :) beautiful post!! and I LOVE the belly pic!! :) can't wait to see this little one!!

  2. You are not HUGE my dear. Not at all.

  3. There he is!!! I am in love with your belly and I REALLY miss mine. I love my snuggly baby but am hoping and praying that that one experience is not the only one I am going to get. I want to be pregnant again so badly and I am so happy that you my friend have been blessed twice with that experience! But I do feel sad for you friends of mine who are not able to take in the miracle and blessing that adoption has brought to my life. I want that again too. What does God have in store for me...for you? We shall see! Isn't it exciting?

    I love you Lin! You are wonderful with words!

  4. First of all, I LOVE that song by citizen cope. And second, I am so glad that you love the whole "baby in your belly" thing! Isnt it amazing how each pregnancy is different, yet all the same. Unlike you, I am ready to get this little girl out of my tummy. But then again, I have been doing this "baby making" thing for almost 11 years, so I am ready for the next stage...the watching them grow stage. But ANYWAY....I am sooooo glad you get to experience it all. They do grow fast, I guess thats why they say "LIVE IN THE MOMENT"....We NEED to get together, maybe before these little people make their entrance into the world! LOVE YOU! :)

  5. give me the hoodie. at first i accidentally wrote hoobie.


    love, gwen.

  6. Awww.... Love the picture of your belly!!!

  7. I can't believe you are in your third trimester. How did that happen so fast?

  8. Love the Belly picture, I am just so excited for you and to meet this new baby boy!

  9. i alwasy love your thoughtful writing. love how much you love being pregnant. however, i find myself thinking...glad its not me. been there done that not too long ago.

  10. You have such a cute pregnant belly. I do feel your pain, though...literally. This was such a sweet post. I needed it. I need to do more of the cherishing and less of the groaning and complaining. Thanks!

  11. how cute is your belly!!! You are perfect, and cute! Can't wait to see pictures of the little a few more months. But, didn't you just find out what you were having a couple weeks ago??? that went by SUPER fast!

  12. btw- I love the picture of your mom and her babies!

  13. Oh Linz- 3rd trimester makes you not care about the labor!! :) haha- u look awesome- I was twice ur size when I was 6 months along with Carson. You will miss it when its over- so enjoy the ride now. :) He will be a doll!