do you ever have one of those moments when all of a sudden you realize how quiet it is? a moment of peace when you can be oh so aware of everything that's going on around you. the sound and feeling of your breath. the smell of the fresh air. have you ever? i've been overwhelmed with the dullness that is my life right now. maybe it's the never ending winter that has it's hold on me but i'm strugglin. winter swallows me up. every year. it's the same days over and over again. fight for luc to sleep a little bit longer every morning. sneak in a shower. chase boy around the house. stay up late. start over. i needed to change things up a bit. we decided to take a mini vacation to SLC this weekend. andrey, lucas and i. just what my little cabin fevered soul needed. we walked around gateway, ordered pizza and snuggled up. we had such a sweet little time together. it was so nice to have my "boyfriend" back. sadly, in everything that is our mundane life we've kind of forgotten to spend time with eachother. i loved being the only thing he was paying attention too and of coarse i love to watch him overwhelmed with love for lucas. sunday i just couldn't get enough fresh air. i finally talked andrey into taking a walk around the block with me while luc slept and then when lukey woke up...i talked andrey into venturing outside yet again. we found a quiet little park that had baby swings. i've been hunting for them since we got here.
lucas was so happy to be a free bird.
he loved it. while we were there i had one of those moments i mentioned before. andrey had run up ahead of me with luc in his arms and all of a sudden everything was quiet and so in perspective. it was a beautiful minute.
i found a surge of energy/happiness and it will hold me through. i'll keep on truckin myself through this winter. there is an end in sight. and these dull-repetitive days i'm living are days of luc's life just passing me by. i need to make better memories for him. take him on more adventures. i'm craving spring.
sarah asked to see where we blog from. here it is in all it's glory...
my parents went to tucson arizona for their anniversary and brought lucas back quite the treasure. a real leather cowboy vest. he wasnt' so happy to be woken up to try it on, but i love it. i can't wait to sew him up a tee-pee.
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